What's all this then?

It's interesting. I have been trying to think of really interesting and wise things to start off this blog to sound super insightful but I haven't been able to come up with anything. I am not sure whether it is the lack of sleep or that I am not in that mood of Captain Knowledge. Then again, it is not on me to be Captain Knowledge, nor is there any reason that it should. I guess what you can say is that I am putting unnecessary weight on my shoulders when I should just be myself on this blog. While I cannot do it physically and throw what is know as my eccentric personality on here, I can just ramble on about what I think. It's a little bit safer for most people.

I wish I had taken fencing or some form of martial arts as a child. In that way, I could not only have a means to defend myself, but a really interesting thing to bring to the table. Maybe if I was an actor than I could help choreograph a few fight scenes and add some interesting things into the mix. That would make me extremely happy, but it's not too late to learn. If there is ever some form of invasion and I gotta protect me and mine, then I have to be prepared. Always wanted two small swords to start fighting with, like in the movie. God made me to be a warrior dang it, so I totally want to get out there and start doing it. Or...watch movies about it, read books, and play video games. Then, reenact it with a friend until we are bruised up enough. That seems a little bit safer.

It boils down to two things: do I play by the rules or do I push my limits? If I am told not to do something, then naturally I will not do something out of respect. But the thought that begins to gnaw at my head is what exactly is that thing that they don't want me doing? Why would they place an obstacle in my path when I clearly would like to plow straight through it. Those with a mind of rules and move on from such a thing, kudos to you. I cannot do something like that. I want to have freedom to break down walls and get through whatever it was I was asked not to do? Why? Because I am an explorer. I want to see things that I am not allowed and haven't seen, traverse new country or explore new pathways of the same road. Curiosity killed the cat, but I am willing to believe that the cat was satisfied with what it found.

Back to violence. While I would enjoy a good beatdown, I don't think that it is the major thing in my life. I believe I was made to be a lover, not a fighter. Sure, get in front of what is mine and threaten it and be sure that I will bring an end to your face. But at the same time, it could be different with other people. Loved ones, for example, I would try to be super nice and loving. I am a protector, and a romantic. A hopeless one for that matter, but that side of me has not been fully discovered and explored yet. One day perhaps, but not at the moment. While I do not watch romantic movies because, well, I'm a guy, but I do enjoy the art of romance. Yes, the art, not the act. Being romantic is not enough for women. It has to be something that is striking, that comes out immediately and lingers. An act of romance will last for so long, but romance that has transcended in an art will last a lifetime. Think about it...Jesus has been using the art of romance to get all of our attentions and we are constantly being drawn to him. Guy knows what he is doing.

So, I am a warrior, an explorer, a lover, a protector, and a rising artist. Interesting. And here I thought I had nothing to talk about.

Guess that is very daft of me.